Have you ever been to an open art studio? Well, this blog is kind of like that. In an open studio, you can watch the sculptor sculpt and the painter paint. Here, you can watch the author write. Only unlike the artist studio where you would be ill advised to slap some paint onto someone else’s canvas or chisel off a piece of someone else’s marble, you are invited to add to this manuscript, this work in progress.
In this writer’s artist studio, you are welcome to pick up your “pen”. Here you are welcome to agree or disagree, to clarify or challenge, to share your ideas and experiences.
This year, 2012, I am reclaiming my relationship with my mother, my heritage, but to do that, I must look at the dynamics that had separated us through all these years.
I am chronicling that journey in my blog, Miyasan’s Daughter. This journey, by way of family dynamics and a father who had gaslighting down to an art, guarantees facing the “beast of the shadows” — covert abuse.
Miyasan’s Daughter is the context, the lens through which I will explore these dynamics.
This blog is the distillation of that knowledge and plants the seeds through the posts I will be writing for the eventual publication of a book.
I actually already have an over 200 page manuscript on relational aggression, a form of covert abuse. For years, I’ve worked on it — putting it down, picking it up, putting it down and picking it up again. Every time I think this time I will complete it, I get bogged down. And it has occurred to me it’s because I feel like I’m talking to myself.
So I’m inviting you to join in the conversation. I thrive on that energy, the exchanging of ideas. Even if no one responds, if I know someone out there is reading, then something is exchanged, and I am renewed.
I’m not sure where this will lead, but I know that while writing may be a lonely endeavor, I am choosing to make it a communal affair.
So pull up a chair and pour yourself a cup of tea. I’ll hand you a piece of my manuscript, something written a while back or just this morning. And we’ll take it from there.